Mar

The fact that I can only really function if I’m entertained and right now I’ve felt so lonely really highlights that my anxiety comes from school as well as just general mental illness. It’s a cycle I can’t break out of because I can’t motivate myself to do anything unless I feel good and I can’t feel good unless I have love to obsess over but not only am I not in love, I have nothing and no one to project love onto and I barely even talk to anyone I’m convinced WANTS to talk to me. I just need like. Something. To fill the void but instead I spend all my time languishing and feeling like I’m going to die.